I can't help but miss everything about us. The way things between us used to be. The way you made me happy. The days that you made me feel lucky and so special. Your simple banats that makes me wanna think of another banat to make you pikon but then I still end up being the one who's pikon. Your never ending kwentos. Your text messages saying good morning every single day. Our asarans. In short, I miss, and I still will miss, everything you and I had and the moments we've shared. :)
I never thought we would be the way we are now. I've always thought hindi tayo magkakasundo. But I was wrong. You made me happy since the day we've become what we are right now. Yeah sure, there may be times that you've hurt me but put all of that together, that can never beat the times that you've made me feel happy, lucky, and special.
Now that you will be away, I am sure that I will miss you even more. I don't know what's gonna happen next, all I know is I'm happy that you're happy with where you are going and what you're gonna do, yet sad because as you come back, hindi ko alam what to expect. Yeah, 12 months may be short but you know, lots of things may actually happen. You told me na pagbalik mo ako pa rin, and as much as I wanna trust your words, I still can't (or shall I say shouldn't) because as I've said, we'll never know what's gonna happen next. Things may change. So as our feelings. Malay natin ngayong magkakalayo tayo at tsaka natin marealize that we don't really love each other as much as sa pagkakaakala natin. I can't promise that I will wait, that I can wait. The only thing I know is that I've learned to live life having you, and I don't know if I may learn to live life again, without you.
Ahh basta! Ang gusto ko lang, kung hindi talaga tayo, sana ako yung unang makalearn to move on and forget about the feeling. And maka-accept ng reality. Yun lang. Dun lang masaya na ko. I may show you that I am strong, that I am not that affected sa pag-alis mo, but you just don't know how sad I am, and scared as well dahil nandyan yung possibility na as you come back, you might have lost your feelings for me yet I haven't lost mine for you. I admit it, I am hoping that you still have the same feelings, or even more, as you come back. Even though I know for a fact that yun nga... Pwedeng mawala.
Above everything else, I just want to thank you for making me feel loved. For making me believe that you love me. For making me happy even for just a short span of time. For being with me. For going to my school after you finish your class. For your pagdalaw on my OJT (haha!) kahit puyat ka. For being patient. For trying hard to understand me. For making me laugh. For your lambings most especially when I am starting to be pikon. For biting me (haha!)! For making me feel so special. For spending time with me. For all the kilig moments that you've made me feel. For the things you've taught me, although unknowingly. And of course, for making me feel lucky. And ohh, how can I forget.. Thanks for catching me soon as I fall! :))
Hay nako basta! As what a friend have told me nga, umalis man yang boylet mo kami kahit ano mangyari nandito lang to try hard to make you happy. See, I am lucky!! :))
