ABSOLUT-ly drunk

Last Monday midnight was a blast, except for the fact that I was... drunk. So many things have happened, at syempre hindi maiiwasang may magkakaiyakan. :)) The tagayan went good, but on the latter part, the group decided to play 1 2 3 PASS [poor me because that was the first time I played that game] and the one who loses the game will drink. Absolut men, 40% alcohol, who wouldn't get drunk? Not to mention that I lost 3 consecutive times. O diba! Being the mabilis-malasing that I am, I was very makulit and maingay syempre. We took lots of pictures!

That was a night worth remembering! But of course, let's except the fact that I was drunk and I bought that fuckin' expensive Absolut. Hahaha!

My Sweetest WHATEVER.

You're not really mine, so I can't call you my ANGEL...

We're not really together, so I can't call you BABY...

I don't know how to put it all together, but you're my sweetest WHATEVER. <3

Absolut

So, how do I start this entry? I just felt the urge of blogging but I actually do not know what shall I blog about. Crazy me. Yesterday, my dad and I went to Pampanga because my Tita invited us for dinner for her post-birthday celebration. I was also able to be with my cousin, who was abroad and went back home just a couple of months ago, for good. Guess what! She bought me a PINK [My gosh, very kikay! I shall start acting like the same! Haha] digital camera! :D Thanks to my cousin, my camera phone and jologs-and-slow-samsung-digicam is now retiring!

helllo SONY! :) the things I can't live without!

Hahaha. Tomorrow, high school friends and I will be having a house party which I set. The new camera will now officially be used. Drinking session tomorrow yehey! Being the laging-excited-sa-inuman that I am, I have been planning on what alcohol shall we take and what cocktails shall we make. I'm thinking of Absolut Vodka! Yipeeeee!

photo grabbed from http://superlative1.files.wordpress.com/

That is the favorite drink of the college friends! Hahaha! Also, I gotta use my ohh-so-new camera so I could capture every moment tomorrow! Yahoo!! I just hope everybody comes. Tomorrow for sure would be a BLAST!

Insomnia

"The scary thing about having an insomnia is not the hours lost for sleeping, but the rerun of thoughts you've been trying to run away from."

Very true noh?! I always find it hard to sleep every night. I don't know what is it in my system that makes sleeping a very hard thing to do. It's like... Mathematics, very very hard! Hahahahaha! But I doubt that I have an insomnia, why? Because I find it hard to wake up in the morning as well! LOL. Baka nocturnal lang ako, hayop ako e. Haha! Anyways, back to the quote written above... Diba it's true naman. Kapag nahihirapan kang matulog lahat ng bagay na hinaharap mo naiisip mo.. Most especially the things that bother you most... The things that you've been longing to have or experience, or keep away from. Kaya ako, I believe that sleeping is an escape from reality. Kasi it is only through sleeping that we forget the things that bother us. Kaya lang minsan, sa sobrang kakaisip sa mga bagay na to, hanggang sa panaginip they're haunting us. Tsk tsk tsk!

Anyway... Earth Hour tomorrow!!! Let's help saving the earth by sacrificng the lights in our place for an hour. :D It's time for us to return the sacrifices our planet has done for us! Go go go let's turn our lights off tomorrow night! :D

Batch 2006 eh?

Yes, today is another bumming day eh. I was supposed to go swimming with my college friends but we've decided to move it to another day so that the group would be complete. I was also supposed to go with my high school friends to a bar tonight to have a gimik but that's too far and I'm too lazy to go as well. Besides, I am organizing a house party for us next week. Dun na lang kami pumarty diba? But one of them is nagiinarte and saying that he can no longer make it next week because the dad is arriving. Anyway, the show must go on! In fact, the party is set on Monday and we will be having it overnight. Hahaha!

Earlier, a high school friend and I went to our high school to go get our yearbook. My gosh, I ain't pleased with how the yearbook was done. It was done in black and white! Who would love that? It's like we're the only ones in that batch in the whole wide world to have that kind of yearbook. So primitive! Hahahaha! I saw my former English Teacher (who by now is the principal) and we've had kwentuhans and stuff. She told us that there will be a grand alumni homecoming next year and we should go. Yehey! I missed my alma mater... and everything about high school. You know, my high school days were the best-est days in my life. I think the words sarap buhay best describes my life during high school. Anyway enough about that dramarama.

Two nights ago, high school friends had a gimik and surprisingly, I didn't go. Yes, a miracle indeed. Hahahaha. Their invitation was very late and my parents would have scolded me if I went out 10PM that night. Mr.Y-K-W kept on texting me, and asking why I didn't go. He said he was expecting me. He even said he would fetch me but I still refused. I was too lazy to go. Besides, the bar that they were in is too cheap and boring for me. Hahahaha I am bad, I know, right. =D He was almost mad, or I guess nagtatampo because he wants me to go. After a while, he sent me a text message and I quote:

"T*** il0vey0u. ."

T*** is our endearment as best friends. Yes, he is my best boy bud. The best boy bud that I fell in love to. Sad noh? Tapos he has someone whom he loves kaya you can call me malas and tanga. :)) Anyway, he sent that text message while they were on a drinking session so I thought he was just too drunk that he didn't know what he was doing. I asked him if he was drunk and told him to go home. But he said he isn't drunk and they were just drinking beer. Yuck noh? Haha. Kaya eto, I am still wondering kung ano ibig sabihin ng message niya...

Bummer, yes I am.

My God. This is what I hate most during school vacations. This is gonna kill me soon! It's just been two days... and more to come, and here I am, finding myself doing unproductive things since the moment I get up from bed 'til I feel like sleeping. My gosh! I've been doing nothing but sleep, text, net surf, eat and watch. I'm such a useless and these things are bringing me nowhere but 6 feet under! You know I really hate staying in the house all day long. Doing such kills me, like, right now?

Anyway, three weeks from now, I'll be having my on-the-job-training and this makes me excited. I don't know what to expect, it just makes me excited. Ever since I went to college, I've been wanting to know the feeling of belonging in the working class. Yeah, I've been looking forward to working and having to earn my own money. And shopping!!! LOL.

Last Friday was a blast. My friends and I have finally put an end to the issues that have been, shall I say going, among the group. I've heard what I've been longing to hear from them, I've finally told them what I am feeling towards the group, and we've shared our own points of view regarding the issues that were raised. That forum made me feel good at last. My perceptions about having an open forum were changed. At first, I thought that that would just worsen the issue, that somebody might get pikon, and some stuff. I was wrong. I never thought they're that open-minded and that they will do everything to stop the misunderstandings among the group.

Darn, tomorrow's another day. Another bumming day! I was texting my high school friends a while ago, asking them if we could go out tonight but too bad, they were busy. Some said they have no money, some said they still have school. WTF. What shall I do?

on moving on

When we truly love someone, we give our best and let that person see the pureness of our intention. But sometimes that person makes us cry and hurts us for the wrong reason. That someone must have loved us but he has not loved us enough to make him stand on what he truly felt.

Now, we are faced with the seemingly impossible task of forgetting. We have burdened ourselves long enough but we still can’t get out of this emotional crisis. Let us remember that the more we try to forget someone we love, the more painful letting go will become. Sometimes we never had to take that person out of our hearts at all, for he will always be there no matter how hard we drive him away. It isn’t his presence that makes this difficult. It is our stubbornness to accept our destiny that aligns forgetting next to impossible. We keep a cold face but deep in our hearts, there is still that lingering hope for reconciliation. Somehow, we still believe that we can rekindle small embers and relight the fire that once burned in our hearts. These thoughts give us hope but it also breeds the seeds of loneliness and despair. The only way to forget is to accept and the only way to move on is to look ahead and let the foot prints of the past be blown by the wind of time.

ironic, isn't it?

I don't know why we all hang onto something we know we're better off letting go. It's like we're scared to lose what we don't even really have. Some of us say we'd rather have that something than nothing at all, but the truth is... to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all.

entrada primera

So there.. Since the end of the semester is fast approaching (oh wait, did I mention that I'm uber excited?), I've decided to create a new blog.. To which I can post anything and everything that comes across my mind, unreservedly. I've got nothing to do on my oh-so-short vacation, that's why. The final exams are set in this coming week, and here I am, surfing over the internet, instead of studying! haha! Talk about procrastination. I just wish the best that I've done is good enough for me to pass every subject that I took. haha!

I so hate this day. Our house's water tank got out of order, and as of 7PM, I still haven't taken a bath yet. Darn! Also, I was supposed to have a biglaang night out with my best friend and Mr.You-Know-Who but it was cancelled due to some reasons. The best friend is about to go home to Bulacan but when she arrived, she found out that their family is going somewhere. So I chose to not go with Mr.You-Know-Who alone. For what pa diba? It'd feel awkward for sure. Besides, I don't think I'm ready to meet and talk to him na. Although I myself know that I have already accepted the fact that he loves her and he cannot love me... I just don't know if I've already moved on. I cannot understand the feeling. Anyhow, the good thing is, I won't be spending money again. I've been very thrifty these past few days because I am saving for my college barkada's Batangas Escapade, I just don't know if it will still push through. How I wish!

Mom's voice is pissing me off. It's so loud! Plus the loud TV beside me! Is she deaf??

Enough! Enough!